don't worry

© Cameron Attree

brisbane, QLD

i've made it through.  brisbane didn't swallow me nor any of my friends.  it didn't even rain.
i am lucky, warm and dry, for as long as i can.
living life as a tourist in western australia this week then heading back to where i may stay.
ill be home eventually, when i find my way.

some people weren't as lucky as i am.  to help those desperately in need that have lost please donate to the efforts.  a little can go a long way.  they are cleaning up slowly but the damage is harsh.

http://www.qld.gov.au/floods/donate.html

every bit is appreciated.

finding nirvana

©Cameron Attree

yesterday i sat still. i spent time with a budding artist whos husband had bought my time as a christmas gift. i mailed him a print to put under the tree and 2 days later i arrived. he paid me handsomely considering the amount of effort expended.

as i posed for the accountant turned artist for a day, i remembered how much work it is to sit still, not move, focus on something and breathe. I started as an art model for classes around my university. im tens years out of practice. now i essentially do my own thing, barely thinking, rarely challenged and only to pause for the 4x5 shooters that need me to hold a pose for a minute or 3. not 30.

as i sit and try to quiet my mind, i focus on the folded sheet nearby. my focus begins to blur and the sheet begins to develop its own personality. my frozen gaze brings me closer to hallucination with this inanimate object. the face in the material becomes clearer and im not at all surprised that this thing in front of me that has all the attention in my being becomes something different entirely. this face keeps my awareness as i lose feeling in most of my body. my breath slows as i begin to meditate and escape to somewhere far from my body, my reality, my self.

in this place time stops. in this place nothing else matters. there is no noise and i like it, even though the audible music still plays in the corner. there is nothing to block my complete concentration on the corner of this sheet. i let myself go, only to come back when she said, "do you need a break?"

apparently i did, and i took it. and i enjoyed every second of it. and i hope to do it again.

nirvana found

all i need

©Cameron Attree- Mission Beach, QLD

I'm the next act

waiting in the wings
I'm an animal

trapped in your hot car
I am all the days
that you choose to ignore

You are all I need
You are all I need
I'm in the middle of a picture
Lying in the reeds

I am a moth
who just wants to share your light
I'm just an insect
trying to get out of the night

I only stick with you
because there are no others

You are all I need
You are all I need
I'm in the middle of a picture
Lying in the reeds

It's all wrong
It's all right
It's all wrong ...

im on a radiohead kick. im surrounded by missed opportunities waiting for the next chance. im up too late again. i think i saw a ghost.

the next day comes and goes

©Cameron Attree

model: Stephanie Anne, partner in crime

time seems to pass quickly here, far too fast. perhaps its really in slow motion, one day turns in to the next with no remorse or pause or hesitation. its tomorrow. its today. its 22 years from now. its all the same really because right now is all there ever really is. your moment has past. your prize posessions are worthless, things. thoughts. forgotten. maybe next time will be better. maybe next time ill be a butterfly.

in the meantime... i got some amazing photos from an amazing photographer with an amazing friend. yeah i think they are that good. mission beach and all its stories will not soon be forgotten. new friends, old friends, good friends. thats all that really matters. the rest is bonus and fills in the gaps of the in between.

gone but not forgotten....