June 22, 2010


there's nothing left to say

June 15, 2010



grand anticipation and the next go round
sound synonym similar
song- like bird baby.
i miss you.
you, that one
not that one
as the moments pass and change and gazing on eternally, internally into
that which is not yet to be seen, only imagined and, well,
come together now and see what i really mean.

she lays drooling beside me as i lay fit to be tied.
who wins this game, when no one's taking score?

June 14, 2010

those girls

© CNirvana
Meet Sara~
this weekend i made lame attempts at shooting model portfolios.  my girlfriend has a promotional agency and her ladies are in desperate need of new images.  in hops candace.  the "models" aren't actually models at all which made my job slightly more challenging.

i realized painfully quickly that even with all my experience in front of the camera i'm clueless as to how to direct a model. (hence the book, coming soon... it wont be long now.)   i've been fortunate enough in my shooting to work with amazing talent, spoiled.  also an added addition to the ease of great shots is the fact that i know most of my models, and know them well.   these ladies were fun but ultimately i fall back to my true love.


Julianna- again and always

a good friend said i'm better with babies.  "magical even".  i believe he's right.
and that makes me happy.

June 9, 2010

number 3

©Vernon Trent

when nobody's looking
when no one is around
i turn the music up loud

and i dance...

Images by the amazing Vernon Trent, third shoot and continually stunning.  http://www.vernontrent.com/
The book is coming soon...

June 6, 2010

that song

music is a huge part of my day, my life, my sanity.  i've recently fallen for  The National, a brooklyn-based indie rock band with an infectious contagion.  i've seen quite a few bands live and get off on the crowd surrounding me (even in my claustrophobia) mixed with the pulse of the vibrating sound, regardless of if the show is technically good or not.  i can honestly say that last night was the best show i've seen to date.  proximity to the stage, quality of the sound (surprising, coming from the known shit acoustics of the electric factory) and sheer entertainment factor was exceptional. electric.  moving.  perfect.  
i'm in love.

not to mention the mini pre-show at breakfast.  these guys are amazing.  simply put.  i will forever be a fan.

and the song i waited for...

"Abel, come on, give me a reason
I am not as bright as I could be
Abel, come on, take me with you
Everything has all gone down wrong"

Abel- High Violet, The National... nearly brought me to tears

when you finally get what you've been waiting for, sit back, watch, and be grateful

June 2, 2010


Thanks Lorna and Amber!~

every now and then someone stumbles in to life and finds that perfect place.   just the right fit.  better half and can't live without.  friend, confidant, partner, muse.  sometimes all those things in one person and life seems complete.  

inspired, confident, content and happy.   i found those things, here. 

and there.

June 1, 2010


time is running out as the days pass quickly.  i quit, she says.  she lies and knows the impossibility of the final days are too far away.  you like me, you really like me.  why should i stop?  just because i said i would, could, should?  you're right but not always right.  right?  stop.  go. maybe slow, wait too slow.  faster.
there's that wall again.  always in my way.  run away.