which way

©CNirvana

CH Harvey

i keep myself up

past the last stroke on the broken clock

wondering when is too late really

listening to the ticking

never seems to get easier 

with the dawn of twilight fading

and I wait

frustrated and disappointed

willing this mind to change

something will change

waiting for the next shoe to fall

paired sideways with the last

crumpled bits of paper scatter the floor

my aptitude of deceiver and deception

fall short of my skillful wallow

lying to the only one that really matters

somewhere the map got flipped upside down
torn corners, matching torn discoveries

lost again, with no way of my own

listen

© CNirvana

the lovely Anastacia

I used to wear these shoes 

that never quite fit

wore them with vigor til the soles

fell out

I used to wear this necklace

the one with the unicorn

that I quickly grew out of

but could never let go of

A token

Gift

memory held of a lifetime

that I can't forget

regardless of the pool

I drown in

swimming, as I do

over hearing misheard conversations

watching words disconnect in the 

swirling of dissonant white noise

she spoke too loudly

so he wouldn't listen

but the conversation remained

the same

not forgotten

© CNirvana

models: a raw muse and self

he's like this song

with the lyrics that just wont stick

but this melody stays with me, always

he looked at me that day

in the only way he could

and said he hoped we could still be friends

then I held my breath

waiting 15 seconds til

i realized my favorite color is no longer blue

there's always that little thing

under the tree

where the roots can't grow

and when the weather is too cold

and I realize I've lost my sweater

I'll always remember NY

maybe sometime

© CNirvana

model: Liilii 

he only answers when it doesn't ring 
pretending that she doesn't see 
this awkward sideways glance,

and still she stares with 
open eyes, watching

he uses his hands when he talks too much

one more stop, til my goodnight

and still wearing home the boots from Bergen street

his  chain hangs around his neck

like the golden cross
pinned tightly to that perfect spot

but still it has no story 

with this back and forth

crossed smiling faces

seemingly stable, yet never the same

with this change
jingling in my pocket
realizing that the noise comforts me
and feeling the warmth
against my palm in my pocket

i finally found what i've been looking for

in the woods

electric forest 2012

these shredded blades of grass seem sharper in the dark

walking towards the endless light

with no visibility in sight

it glows

in the distance with 

this magical reverb off the trees

keep walking

to the point 

where they all disappear

past the paper diamonds

and brightly colored flags

past the wall of trees

where no one seems to go

...but everyone ends up

in to the woods 

where the shadows get longer and

the stories disappear

i miss my memories 

when it was all succinct 

and sweetly tied

just kiss me

nedah 

© CNirvana 

it's orange glow hangs overhead

like the ornaments on last years

christmas tree

gentle in its timid light

but powerfully poignant 

all the same

the flip side of it's orange sunshine

and resonate of all that it can hold 

you see it, but does it feel the same?

magically immense in perfect magnitude

we fly into its guiding light 

and i forget that you've already lost you

still hiding hope for that moment 

when your release is really yours

and all that you want is all that you own

my breath stays mine til you make it so

and as the reflections fade

i forget where we started

white noise disappears on deaf ears 

when you heard me it was true 

and now, this microphone goes silent

black and white bird

bright sunny day

©CNirvana

as walk alone, i listen
to this song in my mind
the one only you can sing to me

in the sweetest voice i've never heard

that make believe romance

that exists only in barbie's play land

is mine, ours

imaginary wonderment come true

you whisper my name

vibrations pass through walls on soft ears

these little four letter words 

oh how big they can be

this anxious separation subsides

and truth is the one thing holding me together

all i've ever wanted

will never be big enough to hold you

wandering the streets, that all lead back to this almost didn't exist...

clean

© CNirvana

model: Stephanie Anne

the face with no eyes stares at me

with this sly smirk grinning

you know more than you say

up to my chin in mud and dirt

feeling that pulse in my chest

like the last train coming to a stop

the warm drops of water hit my cheek

falling from above

and gently rolling down to find their new home

and this hot steam rising 

making me sweat and wander

as the puddle builds beneath me,

swimming in a pool of blue

sing me to sleep again

where the dark night holds me

i never knew you, but i dreamt of you still

For Jaik Miller, laid to rest long before his time. An amazing songwriter and musician who will not soon be forgotten...

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riding

i need to get back to the subway

where those doors close tight

and the noise swallows me 

reuniting with the ones i love

we sit at the end of a long pew

staring at the bottom of this rocky road 

in excess, the only way to be

we wrap ourselves around each other

holding tightly to what we came for

i wait for you

in these empty moments

filled with the liquid of dreams

emptied by the last call

moments

© CNirvana

Rebecca Lawrence

i'm listening to the same song again

reverberating in my head

then my vision blurs and I forget 

this moment, when watching turns internal 

the cover to this song sings me to sleep

just like the momentum in my speech

then he comes back with all the answers 

to nothing I asked

same thoughts with slight repetition

i forget the rest

nothing else matters

believe

©J and J photography

this trip of a lifetime over the seas

hands held tightly with gentle attention to overindulge

just what i've always wanted

spare no expense on this one

it will all be gone before you

the only care, oceans blue

i watch him wonder through wandering

wishing this trip will never end

we are the same in this life

the shadow beneath us

so small in comparison 

together we reach such great heights

alive in what feels like a dream

escaping all else with the world on pause

and finding the rest seek

maybe perfect can exist